These last few weeks have been both good and hard. I have very much enjoyed much needed time with my family. We’ve counted our blessings, shared in feasts, laughed, reminisced and made new memories.
Even though I am still struggling with some things in my heart, I feel the balance has shifted to that of joy being the more dominant part. I’m smiling as I type this.
This year has already brought new changes. For the first time my husband and I have come together to really sit down and talk about our future, to make goals for us as individuals, as a couple and as a family. Of course, I wish I could say that we’ve done this all along and that we’re close to perfect because of it. For some people, that is their truth, but for us, we’ve had to go through a lot to get to this point and to be honest, it now makes me smile to think about.
We’re not a perfect couple, we don’t have a perfect family, but we do have a perfect God.
He is what we lean on. He is Who has helped us fight for where we are in our lives now. Gratefulness swells my heart.
I am so looking forward to what will unfold in this new chapter in our lives together. We have come so far to be able to sit next to each other, sharing our dreams, exposing our fears, agreeing on our strengths. The Lord HAS been at work in us. He HAS lead us to a place of healing and hope!
This new year has been written by God, but hasn’t been lived out yet.
I am looking forward to living this new year. And not just living, but living fully. I have a new sense of hope, a new sense of togetherness and new sense of freedom!
Last year I felt the Lord give me the word “Freedom” as my theme word for the year. When I look back, my memories blow me away! He truly lead me through so many dark areas of my life into the freedom of His light of truth. His truth about me, His truth about others, His truth about who He is.
I’m not who I used to be. Not as a person, not as a wife, not as a mother or any other role. I have changed.
I’m actually looking forward to walking out who I am becoming. I’m so humbled, I’m so moved, I’m so…LOVED.
I know it won’t be easy. I know temptation and old habits will try to sway me in each new situation. I know I’ll fail. Probably a lot. But this year is different. This year is not going to be like any other year. I can start choosing today, how I will respond to what my future holds.
I can choose to trust, obey, forgive, learn, persevere, walk humbly, be courageous, show mercy, extend grace, love better…
I can do all of that today by choosing it. If I resolve to purposely look ahead with a mindset of being more Christ-like, it can be achieved and do you know why? The secret is this:
As I choose to lay down my life to the will and ways of Christ, He will meet me there and through me He will accomplish all He wants to do in and with my life. It’s all about yielding my will to His. It’s all about decreasing ME so that HE may increase. All these things can be attained if I simply continue to choose God’s glory over my own.
Not my will, but His. Not my plans, but His. Not my strength, but His. Not my anything, but His everything.
When you look forward to what this next year has in store for you, what do you see? Through whose eyes do you see it? What are you planning for that may not be the very best that God has for you? Are you willing to lay it all down, that Jesus may be the divine author of your future?