There you are.

My brand new, beautiful baby girl, Kayla Love.

Your swirl of peaches & cream hair all perfectly placed.

You are laying there, knees tucked up to your chest as if you were still inside me.

You inhale this little quivering whimper of air, I hold my breath for a moment, you’re ok.

Tiny fingers clenched into tiny fists, you open one to stretch.

Pink skin, still a little crinkly, I brush as gentle as the beat of a butterflies wings, tracing the perfect lobe of your tiny ear.

I wasn’t gentle enough, you sleepily turn and I freeze still, praying you don’t wake up.

Settling back into your slumber, I exhale a stifled sigh of relief…and thanks.

Oh how I want to pick you up!

How I want to bring you to my chest to feel you breathe and hear your heartbeat and feel your skin touching mine and become one with you only this time outside of me.

You are more than I thought you’d be. You are more than I thought I needed.

You are hope to me.

Your life has given me life, a second chance to make something of myself. Another shot at touching something that doesn’t fall apart.

In the quiet of this moment, I realize what I’ve done.

The weight of such a decision, I thought would be too much to bear.

In the quiet of this moment I become aware, even a screw-up like me can choose life and have it go right!

The beginning of your life has become the new beginning of mine.

 

Five Minute Friday

1. Write for 5 minutes flat – no editing, no over thinking, no backtracking.
2. Link back here and invite others to join in.
3. And then absolutely, no ifs, ands or buts about it, you need to visit the person who linked up before you & encourage them in their comments. Seriously. That is, like, the rule. And the fun. And the heart of this community..

 

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Allison November 9, 2012 at 4:13 pm

Oh my gosh…that was absolutely beautiful! Completely took me back to those first days of baby’s life. Your love for your daughter is palpable! She is a lucky girl! Congratulations!

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denise November 9, 2012 at 5:05 pm

Sweet, sweet post.

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Nikki November 9, 2012 at 7:03 pm

Oh my heart….YES!

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Tammy Skipper (@Tammy_Skipper) November 9, 2012 at 7:23 pm

Thank you for sharing this precious, quiet moment. What a story of joy and hope!

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Lauren November 10, 2012 at 5:50 am

LOVE! What a precious, sweet memory of your daughters’ first moments!

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~Karrilee~ November 10, 2012 at 4:38 pm

OH MY HEART! Wow… just gorgeous… and I agree – what a blessed little bundle of Heaven you have… a new beginning for you both to grow and love and learn… such a gift and a treasure!

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